For the time spent section, about 80% of my life is preoccupation with others. I’m not talking about in a dramatic way; gossip actually UNinterests me. I actually find it tiresome. I am very much interested in how people operate. What is their temperament? Are they open-minded? What sets them apart from the stereotype they are placed with when people first meet them? What is important to them? Why are they existing? What makes life worth living for them? Who is important to them? What are their best qualities? What do they love about being on Earth? See. This genuine interest in everyone actually takes up a large chunk of my energy/ thoughts. People are FASCINATING. They are all so different and the things they have built, civilizations, cultures, structures, and the things they have set to be true, science, language, representations are just incredible. I mean, humans start from scratch and come up with the most amazing things. It never ceases to amaze me. Even their ideas, the only way I can comprehend them is through a shared language and system of representations. Don’t even get me started on human emotions! SO INTERESTING! Now you know…now you know my mind. Also, I have problems letting go of the past; more so problems of guilt and questioning whether or not I’m a good person on a daily basis. If I for example, don’t hold the door for someone I will feel so guilty. So I move on instantaneously, but if you mentioned like 3 weeks from then that you hate it when people don’t hold the door for you. I would think back to it and still feel so guilty. Can you imagine doing that with relationships ended? Not just dating I mean in general? Madness. You grow up and you make mistakes, but when you can’t seem to escape that guilt, or say the environment you’re in is unforgiving of past mistakes and has little appreciation or room for forward and upward growth, that’s when you’ve got to leave. You can forget things if you’re on your own and move on and realize you’re human and things aren’t perfect, but when you cannot shake the catalysts that is a whole different issue.